3 more weeks to chalet. yeah C H A L E T.

i'm dumbfounded by everything. it all seems so unreal. truth and lies look to be the same to me.
i don't know how i'm going to spend this last 3weeks.
the feeling of chasing after something with vigour keeps me alive. yet the wait seems like forever.
no hints. no signs. no affirmation.

i miss her smile, her voice, her laughter, her smell, her touch. its just the whole her that i long for.
i really hope i can spend some time with her or something before my chalet calls for me. but i guess all of this may just be a dream. or should i say a nightmare.

somehow or rather i can dream of what i want almost every night. if i think of it hard enough before i go into the dreamland, the vision will appear in my dreams. i've been dreaming of her. yeah almost every night.

can i turn back time? if i can't can i fast forward the time to the end of this year?
if all doesn't work, can i just stay in my dreams?