i dont know why time and again i keep saying hurtful things to her. its not like i really wanted to say them but it just came out.
i saw her again today.
she seems to look drained. like she's just undergone some tough situations.
yet whenever i had the chance to stop and talk to her, i just looked away as if im avoiding her.
i dont know how to start things out.
there are so many things i want to ask her.

how have you been?
hows your studies going along?
have you eaten your meals regularly?
why did you sms me telling me all these suddenly?
what happened between you and joel?
why were you so cold hearted to me when we broke up?
did you think of me before?
do you have someone you like now?
are your parents still as strict with you?

i want to have a nice talk with her in person. without the cold attitude she gave me in the past.
i want to see the old her again. the her that i loved. and the her that i still love.