Wednesday, January 28, 2009
momo shy in front of the cam at first
he's just so hyper u gotta put ur hand on top of him so that he doesnt run!
thats my nephew behind. he likes dogs but is scared of touching them. lol
yay this final pic is the best. everyone is looking at the camera. haha.momo grown so much la. his head has definitely grown bigger. and his hair just got trimmed so he looked exceptionally handsome today ^^ he's now so strong and big till i even had a hard time wrestling with him. he'll wriggle out with full force and i had no choice but to hug him tight. but it was nice la. he felt so warm :) let go of ur hands on him for a second and he'll go berserk man. he is a walking time bomb and im the detonator. lololol. but i still love him :D
my nephew axious is only 5 this year. yet he knows so many things. ask him about cars and he can name u so many different models of cars that even i dunno about. his mum told me he once initated a conversation with an old lady he met in the bus and they talked the whole trip home. the old lady shocked tio by his flow of speech. like a teenager talking lidat. hahaha.
i still kinda remembered last year's cny. it was fun i have to say. going out with friends to bai nian and all. each year my cny just gets more and more dull. no life ah~ lololol.
it was around this time one year ago, that i fell for her.
now one year on, maybe that feeling hasnt gone.
i really dunno. because time and again when i see her pictures, my heart aches. it just aches.
why, i dunno.
i do still think even when i try not to.
i want her back. yet i cant bring myself to enter this scene again.
i hate her cause she scarred me.
i knew it. right from the start when i told myself to hate her and forget everything.
i knew it. it was impossible.
during the time when i was with her, she was all i ever wanted.
caring, sensitive, chatterbox, fun-loving, gr8 sense of humour, loving.
but her 180deg turn when we broke up made me so disappointed and heartbroken.
it was like a dream crashed.
i wanna move on. i wanna find someone new. i wanna experience love again.
but i dunno if i can do it or not.
because of the girls who i know have feelings for me, i never gave them any assurances.
i wanna play. and break ppls hearts just like how mine was broken. i wanted to be on top for once. to have someone love me more then i love the person for once.
but it just isnt me to do all that. my conscience wun allow it to happen.
so i end up here. apologising, making up, losing pride, losing confidence.
i done it all.
what else can i do? tell me please. someone just tell me please.
Super Marcus signed off at 2:43 AM