marcus yeo. give it up man! ppl already don care bout u why do u still care so much bout her? she doesn't even care if ur alright or not or if ur dead or not. why do u still bother bout her life? cause i cant help it
i tend 2 get jealous, envious and all. but i have no rights 2 do so. 'why cant i be da one instead?' i ask myself dis every now and then. then i ask myself why did we have 2 break up in da first place? why dint we just give each other one more chance? and then its all bout her parents. but was our love dat unstable from da very start? i've always love her with all i've got and never once wavered. i never doubted her love b4 too. i could feel it throughout da whole of our r/s. but when she suddenly said she had no more feelings anymore, dat was wad hit me da hardest. dat was wad hurt me so bad dat i was hospitalised. but nth hurts more den her leaving me. she wants it dis way and i have no choice but 2 accept it. i don deny dat im still hoping dat she'll come back 2 me someday. because a girl like her's impossible to find. i just know dat.
how long it takes 2 win her back, how long i'll wait. after my A's, or maybe after her A's, i dunno. she told me not 2 wait. im sorry. i cant. cause i've already set my mind 2 wait for da day dat i have a chance 2 win u back. no matter how much u hate me now, how much u feel dat wad im doing is no use cause u'll never like me again, i'll still wait.
right now, i have 2 force myself as much as i can, not 2 talk 2 her if she doesn't want to. although i really hope dat we can just be friends now, it seems she's still not fond of dat idea. i cant do anything if she doesn't wanna tell me anything. maybe nothing is wad she wants. im not sure too. everytime i visit her blog my heart would wrench uncontrollably. but yet dere will be a tinge of smile in me cause i noe she's happy. its very hard to love someone when u cant b with da person. its very hard to feel truely happy when u see da girl u love being happy without u. how hard it may be, i'll try to overcome it. because im marcus yeo. i must be strong.
if only im da one who has a place in her heart

i just received a letter from MINDEF today. im chosen 2 be a commando and gotta report for deir assessment on 25july at a pasir ris camp by 745am! WTH! so freaking early! i dowan 2 b a commando. in a war dey are da first one 2 die sia. and i read up dat deir lives are always at risk throughout da whole 2yrs of NS. needa go jump parachuting 5 times and do a one off 72km road march. SIAO. its totally crazy stuff. but if i do get in, wish me luck man.