Wednesday, July 9, 2008
i guess she has someone else she likes now already. i shud b happy 4 her ba. although i feel hard done by cause im not da one, if she's happy den its okay i guess. its really okay. i just needa cry everything out tonight and i'll b fine tml.
i have many mixed feelings actually. happy, sad, angry, crazy, cranky. i cant seem 2 get my feelings right now. which is why i got ALL U'S for my mid yrs. i dint even study properly cause nth really got into my thick head. its hard. n i really hope dat i wun pull her down too. i hope she'll do well unlike me. ha even till now im thinking for her. kinda dumb yea? i may look like im damn wei da but i think i suck. i dint think for her b4 n was selfish. i was just all bout myself n scared dat she'll leave me. in da end i caused trouble 4 her when all i wanted was 4 her 2 b safe from it. how ironic. wads done is done n cant b undone like how i want.
she's a clever girl. she noes wad she wants n if she fixed her mind on smth, even i cant change it. although she may look naive n all, but she isn't da least bit like dat. from my days with her, she showed me how mature she was in handling a r/s. she was caring, thoughtful, understanding, sensitive and she knew how i felt. dats her. n dats da her i love. dats da her, dat im willing 2 sacrifice my happiness, in return 4 hers.
i have many mixed feelings actually. happy, sad, angry, crazy, cranky. i cant seem 2 get my feelings right now. which is why i got ALL U'S for my mid yrs. i dint even study properly cause nth really got into my thick head. its hard. n i really hope dat i wun pull her down too. i hope she'll do well unlike me. ha even till now im thinking for her. kinda dumb yea? i may look like im damn wei da but i think i suck. i dint think for her b4 n was selfish. i was just all bout myself n scared dat she'll leave me. in da end i caused trouble 4 her when all i wanted was 4 her 2 b safe from it. how ironic. wads done is done n cant b undone like how i want.
she's a clever girl. she noes wad she wants n if she fixed her mind on smth, even i cant change it. although she may look naive n all, but she isn't da least bit like dat. from my days with her, she showed me how mature she was in handling a r/s. she was caring, thoughtful, understanding, sensitive and she knew how i felt. dats her. n dats da her i love. dats da her, dat im willing 2 sacrifice my happiness, in return 4 hers.
Super Marcus signed off at 11:30 PM