Saturday, June 23, 2007
when i heard da news, my heart sank
she dowan 2 hav a bf till aft her poly
which is 3 yrs later
i feel so disappointed
i waited 4 9mths n nw i've 2 wait 4 another 3yrs
but wad can i do?
i mus respect her decision
its onli wise 4 her dat she wans 2 concentrate on her studies
i noe once she has a mindset of doin tings she wil nv change it, not 4 anyone else
i don blame her
its her life n i noe well enuf dat i don hav a say in it
all i can do is stil remain close frens wit her now ba
support her n b dere 4 her wheneva she needs it
dats da most i can do
its hurts so bad dat i cant hold her in my arms
reali hurts
i cried
i cried da whole night
frs time so painfully since i break wit her
y did i do such a stupid ting last time?
i until now stil regret it so much
aft dat happened everythin jus crashed
i not onli hurt her alot, i oso hurt myself even more
Y DID I DO SMTH DAT KILLED MYSELF?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?
aft we break, i felt so pain
i tried so hard 2 patch tings up but 2 no avail
i told myself mayb its time dat i shud forget u n move on
i did so many tings day in day out n kept myself veri busy goin out wit my frens n gettin as involved as possible in many events n outings
i wanted my mind not even a time 2 rest n relax
cuz once i had da time 4 dat, i wud alwiz tink of her
its alreadi been smth natural 4 me
but one day i broke down aft a few mths of chiongin everythin
my heart was so pain literally i felt lyk i had a heart attack
i was in sch n on da way goin 4 my class when i cud not even move my body
i had 2 squeeze chest n curl my body
i lied down on da canteen bench feelin so pale
i blacked out 4 awhile
almost went 2 da hospital but i told my frens not 2 cor da ambulance cuz i dint wan 2 worry my parents
no one noes how much i've been thru
i tink no one cares too
but nvm
i'll get used 2 it soon
i guess
my birthday is one mth away
dis wil b da saddest birthday up 2 date
i jus hope dat day i can at least hav a smile on my face
Super Marcus signed off at 11:22 AM
she dowan 2 hav a bf till aft her poly
which is 3 yrs later
i feel so disappointed
i waited 4 9mths n nw i've 2 wait 4 another 3yrs
but wad can i do?
i mus respect her decision
its onli wise 4 her dat she wans 2 concentrate on her studies
i noe once she has a mindset of doin tings she wil nv change it, not 4 anyone else
i don blame her
its her life n i noe well enuf dat i don hav a say in it
all i can do is stil remain close frens wit her now ba
support her n b dere 4 her wheneva she needs it
dats da most i can do
its hurts so bad dat i cant hold her in my arms
reali hurts
i cried
i cried da whole night
frs time so painfully since i break wit her
y did i do such a stupid ting last time?
i until now stil regret it so much
aft dat happened everythin jus crashed
i not onli hurt her alot, i oso hurt myself even more
Y DID I DO SMTH DAT KILLED MYSELF?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?
aft we break, i felt so pain
i tried so hard 2 patch tings up but 2 no avail
i told myself mayb its time dat i shud forget u n move on
i did so many tings day in day out n kept myself veri busy goin out wit my frens n gettin as involved as possible in many events n outings
i wanted my mind not even a time 2 rest n relax
cuz once i had da time 4 dat, i wud alwiz tink of her
its alreadi been smth natural 4 me
but one day i broke down aft a few mths of chiongin everythin
my heart was so pain literally i felt lyk i had a heart attack
i was in sch n on da way goin 4 my class when i cud not even move my body
i had 2 squeeze chest n curl my body
i lied down on da canteen bench feelin so pale
i blacked out 4 awhile
almost went 2 da hospital but i told my frens not 2 cor da ambulance cuz i dint wan 2 worry my parents
no one noes how much i've been thru
i tink no one cares too
but nvm
i'll get used 2 it soon
i guess
my birthday is one mth away
dis wil b da saddest birthday up 2 date
i jus hope dat day i can at least hav a smile on my face
Super Marcus signed off at 11:22 AM